Vacation - Just what I needed

Vacation was memorable to say the least. First of all it was the best time I have had in a long time. Especially the time I spent in my own head away from all that is my reality. Reality bites sometimes and since I can’t sleep my life away living in my dreams, there are times when just getting away from my reality gives me just what I need, a break. It also gave me time to do some serious assessments of a variety of things (so many that listing them would take up this entire blog). I did this all in my head while I sat by the pool, baked on the beach or just chilled in bed for no reason. For the first time in a long time, I felt no guilt about being away from work, a sign that I am no longer taking myself so seriously. I felt no guilt about resting and doing nothing. Overall, I felt no guilt about being on vacation which is a HUGE step for me. I also overcame a fear I have of boats by going on a cruise period. At various points I thought I was being tricked into the middle passage and at other times I felt like the iceberg was just ahead, but alas, none of that happened and I made it through the entire cruise without one ailment or one episode of being seasick! That was awesome! But most of all, I managed to relax, something I haven’t been able to do in a VERY long time. This could be the start of a very good pattern of behavior….